Dear Jodan,

You probably weren’t expecting me to write you , especially after what happened before I left. But I felt I just had to write. It’s been a very long time since we’ve seen or heard from each other . So much has happened since then. I don’t look quite the way you remember. I cut my hair a little shorter and I grew a few inches. I sent you a recent picture. That’s Uncle Rahj and my cousin, Sulhi standing next to me. I’m the one on the left wearing pink. You always said I looked good in pink.

Anyway, the reason I’m writing is because I’ve been thinking about you a lot. In fact, I never stopped thinking about you since I moved away. How about you? Have you been thinking of me too? I really do miss you. I didn’t tell you sooner because I figured you would have found someone else right away. You never seemed to have trouble getting girlfriends. As for myself, I haven’t been seeing anyone else. It’s not that no one is asking. It’s just that I really don’t want to see anyone else.

Jo, you probably think I hate you or something after what happened between us, but I don’t. Actually, I never stopped loving you. You were my first and that makes you very special to me. I know I’m probably wasting my time telling you all this, but I just had to let you know how I feel. If you don’t feel the same way, I understand. If you never write back, I’ll understand that too. If you’ve found someone else who makes you happy, I can honestly say that I am happy for you. As for myself, I haven’t met anyone who can compare to you. You’re the only boy who ever accepted me for who I am and didn’t try to make me fit some silly mold or change me into something I’m not. I’ll always love you for that. Write me back if you like.

Love,

Triz
 

Trizana,

I know you haven't been expecting me to write to you, but lately, all I have been thinking about was you. Ever since you moved away, it felt like you took a huge chunk of my heart with you. Things have been a little tough since you left us. Mikel's become a SilverHawk. They're those cybernetic soldiers stationed in Limbo Galaxy. What prompted him to do so, well, let's just say things haven't worked out well between him and Marana.

Between his leaving and yours, I was a mess. I would spend every night partying and whoring and all that junk. Then, I got hit by a car--don't worry, I'm okay now--and was in the hospital for a long time. While I was recovering, I kept thinking about how terrible my life has been. Afterwards, I kinda dumped the 'Skank Train', as Detia calls them. I was trying to reforge something in Meera, but when I read your letter, I realized what I should've figured out a lot sooner.

You're the only girl I know who liked me for who I really am. I know there are times I didn't deserve it, but you were nice to me. Meera and her cousins and all those other girls were only interested in me because of my name. They wanted to know if "Meglouse" really meant "well-endowed,” as in rich. Talk about shallow. But until your letter, what choice did I have? I almost considered proposing to Meera! I was desperate! Fortunately, your letter gave me hope that someday, you'll return to me and we can start over. Once, you told me I had to prove myself faithful to get somewhere with you. Well, Triz, I'm proving myself to you now. Write back soon. (please?)

With all the love in my heart,

Jodan
 

Dear Jodan,

You don't know how happy I am that you wrote back! I'm pleasantly surprised. It looks like you've been through a lot. And I thought I had a lot of drama going on here. That comment you made about those other girls got me thinking. Jo, I don't know if you really don't know or you're just being polite, but those girls were not interested in your money. Let's just say they were after something else you carry in your pants. "Well endowed" doesn't only refer to riches, you know. Believe me, I know. I've seen the girls' bathroom wall at the Fountain Hill Academy. And all they ever talked about in the locker room was how big they heard Meglouse boys are. I'm shocked that you even told me that you hooked up with the Hasau girls again. I mean, Meera was the one who brought me your lost pager. Well, since you were honest with me, I think that's a very good sign. Shows me I can get to trust you again.

I am willing to give you another chance. Uncle Rahj and I are moving back to Mua country soon. A mining community is being set up at the quarry. I'm a surveyor now. Detia tells me Tam is hiring surveyors so I might be working for your sister. We'll see.

Your graduation picture looks nice. You look very handsome. I also loved that sketch you sent me. So, you drew it that day we were at Mirror Lake. I never forgot that day you, your brother, and Detia stood up for me. That was really sweet. I never got to properly thank you for it. I have to remember to do that when I see you again. I hope you like the picture I sent of me by Altus Canal. I usually don't wear dresses that short, but it was hot that day. And it was more comfortable than my mining coveralls. Well, I'm getting kinda long winded, so I'll say this. I love you Jodan, and I hope to see you soon.

With passionate kisses,

Triz
 

Hey Triz,

I'm so glad you'll be moving back here soon! So, when exactly are you moving back? Let me know, because I've got some plans for you! You know, I think you have a little tease in you. That dress you're wearing in the picture is MUCH shorter than what you used to wear. Maybe you could wear it for me when you get back. (hint, hint)

I'm so glad you're going to give us another chance. This time, I'll make sure I do things right. I've matured a lot since then, thank Vasah. Triz, can I call you sometime? I know it will be very expensive, but I want to hear your voice just once. After that we can stick to writing letters again. My voice has gotten deeper since we last saw each other.

And about the "well endowed" business. Actually, those girls were after the riches and my "naughty bits." My pahda told me he went through similar stuff when he was my age. He said it stems back to my japahda, Master Quito. He's very, very, VERY wealthy. On top of that, he has an entawan and a pitawan. Neither of them has had to work in cycles. All they do is travel and shop. Man, if you were my entawan, I'd want you to be able to live like that!

You mentioned in your last letter that you were going through some drama yourself. What's going on? Does it have to do with you finding your real pahda? Have you been able to locate him yet?

I know your birthday is coming up. Yes, I do remember your birthday. Let me know what you want and I'll send it right to you if I can. Just don't ask for anything too big, like a car or a boat. I would send you my heart, but you already have that. Hope you can come back to me soon, cheri beri.

With all my love,

Jo
 

Hello my love,

Sorry I didn't write back sooner. I've been having family problems. I want to try to find my pahda, but Uncle Rahj doesn't want me to because he says my pahda is crazy. I don't know if that's really true or not. My mahda died when I was 3 cycles. Uncle Rahj told me that my pahda dropped me off at his house one day and told him he was going on a quest to find someone from his past. We haven't seen him since. I don't even know if he's alive or not. I know that Pahda was born in Mua country. His parents moved there and lived in Merchant Village until they died. Maybe when we move back to Mua country I can find out something. I hope so. I feel like I'm so close. Write back soon, love.

Lots of kisses,

Triz

PS: I wrote my phone number on the back of the letter.

PPS: I would like a Cherri Berri CD for my birthday.
 

Hey cutie,

How's it going? Any progress in your search? I really hope you do find him. I have a steady job now illustrating text books. Yeah, I know. BORING. But it's a job. Hopefully I'll get this other job I'm interested in. I'd really like to be a magazine photographer and do my own original work on the side. I also got my own place. I used some of the money Japahda Quito gave me for my education. There is plenty left over.

I really enjoyed our phone conversation last night. I'd forgotten how excited your sexy accent gets me. I always loved that accent! I really hope we'll be able to do the things we talked about very soon. I'm ready when you are baby!

Love,

Jo
 

Dear Jodan,

I really enjoyed your call too. You sound so much more mature. Thank you for the CD and the birthday card. Yours is coming up soon so let me know what you want. I would give you what you asked me for on the phone, but that's going to have to wait. Uncle Rahj got me a new car. I'm glad cuz I was tired of driving that big utility van around. It's ok for driving at the job site, but not when going out to hang out with Sulhi. When she saw your picture the other day she said you were really hot. I told her you were taken. That's right. You are mine boy! *hee hee* By the way, I heard the Anti-Gravity Room's orbit will be over Mua country in a couple days. Are you going to go? Also, I've enclosed a pic of me in my room on my bed. You see I still have that stuffed tree bear you gave me before I left. You like my pink pajamas? I'm looking forward to your next letter. Love you.

Triz
 

Hey, Beautiful,

I have some awesome news. Looks like I will be able to see you for my 18th birthday. I bought a ticket to Mua country. I also booked a hotel room overlooking Altus Canal. Looks like you won't have to wait to give me what I asked for! You have a whole month to plan any birthday surprises for me. Hope you'll be ready for me.

Did you like the sweet cakes I sent you. Pahda made them. He's a caterer now. By the way, I didn't go up to the Anti-Gravity Room this time. I was saving up for my trip to see you. Maybe we can go together when you move back here. Speaking of which, any idea when you'll be moving back? Detia and WuWu miss you too. Maybe we can all hang when you move back here. I'm coming to you soon, my love! One month! Oh, YES!

Love,

Jo
 

Dear Jodan,

When you told me you were coming here for your birthday, I thought I was dreaming! I can't believe I'm going to get to see you after all this time. I have something special planned for you when you get here. There is a restaurant in the Altus View Hotel. It just so happens that Sulhi works there as a hostess. After you get settled in your room, meet me there at 6 PM. I will be wearing that brown and gold dress from that past picture I sent you. I'm going to make this a birthday you'll never forget, my love. See you in two weeks!

Trizana
 

The two weeks until I see you, Triz, will be the longest two weeks in my life. I cannot wait to see you, hear your voice, tell you everything that has been going on in my life, and hear about everything in yours. I will cherish these letters always, but to see you, to touch you, to hold you in my arms, these are the things I dream about. Just seeing you will make this a birthday I will never forget. I will be sure to meet you promptly at 6 pm, my love, to see your lovely face.

I love you

Jodan
 

Hey Lover,

Hope you had a safe trip home. I'm still basking in the bliss that was your birthday weekend! It turned out better than I ever imagined. Sulhi wanted to know what you did cuz I've been calling your name in my sleep lately and walking around in a daze. I told that's between the two of us. I'm sorry I had to turn down your offer of returning with you. It's not that I don't love you. Vasah knows I do! It's just that Sulhi is moving to Altus City so it will just be me and Uncle Rahj. He's my great Uncle you know, and he's not that young anymore. He's about to retire in a few cycles. Hopefully, the homes by the quarry will be complete in the next cycle or two. You've only been gone one day and I miss you so much already. I might be calling you in the next few days, love. I'm always thinking of you.

Love,

Triz
 

My dear sweet, gorgeous Trizana,

My family has been wondering what's going on with me too. I've been walking around with a big smile plastered on my face all day. Triz, you are awesome. I am kinda disappointed that you didn't come back with me, but I do understand. Your uncle is so blessed to have someone as loving and caring as you in his life. I've been down to the quarry. The progress is moving along. They got a few cabins up already. Hopefully they will be in living condition soon so you can move here. The quarry isn't too far from where my parents live. It's about half a mile.

I don't know if WuWu told you yet, but she and Col are seeing each other. He and Detia broke up a while ago. Bo is still single though. He's been more quiet than usual lately. He hasn't been very sociable either. I'm kinda worried about him. When I got back home I found out Meera had come by my parents' house to drop off a birthday present for me. I gave it back to her and told her I already got gifts from my girlfriend. She's still pissed that I dumped her. You should have seen her face when I told her who my girlfriend is. It was a classic moment. I'll keep you posted on the progress of the mining community. Hope to see your pretty face soon.

Love,

Jo
 

Dear Jodan,

I sure wish I could have been there to see Meera's face when you told her we were back together. This time, let's not let her or anyone else come between us. I was surprised when you told me about Detia breaking up with Col. They were such a cute couple. And you say he's going out with WuWu? I didn't even know WuWu was interested in him! Oh well, life's full of surprises.

I talked to Tamla about working for her. She said she'll have a job lined up for me as soon as I get to Mua country. I'm so relieved. I hate job hunting. It can be so stressful. What would you like to do together when I get there? Would you like to go to Mirror Lake and visit our little private spot? I think that would be quite romantic. Tell everyone I said hello and that I miss them.

LOVE,

Trizana
 

Dear Triz,

What do you think I'd like for us to do together when you get back? The same thing we did for my birthday, baby! We can have a little romantic picnic at Mirror Lake too, if you like. That would be nice.

I have exciting news. Some of my original work is going to be featured in a local art show. Hopefully it will catch a buyer's eye. Hopefully a wealthy buyer! One of the works is a water color of you splashing around in the Great Fountain. Didn't know I saw you that day, did you? I did the sketch for that one the day before Detia introduced us at school. I transferred the sketch to a water color canvas and blew it up. I've enclosed a photo of it. when you move back here, I'll let you see the actual piece. As you can see, you are my inspiration in so many ways.

Love,

Jodan
 

Dear Jodan,

I have exciting news too! I got a call from my pahda. He ways he's doing fine. He hasn't found his old friend yet, though. He told me he couldn't leave a number or address because he doesn't stay in one place. He's been living in hotels and stuff. I told him about you and how much I'm in love with you. He said he's glad I'm with someone who brings me so much happiness. He also said he'd like to meet you someday. His name is Usahd Bernuf. Is it ok if I give him your number? Let me know.

Love,

Trizana
 

Dear Trizana,

I think I'll wait to talk to your pahda when you move here. I just don't feel comfortable with that idea right now. Remember what happened when your uncle called me that day we broke up? Come to think of it, he didn't seem to like me that much when we first started dating. I never knew why though.

Anyway, there's a lot going on here. I'm doing very well in my studies. I should be a Master artist before I even become an Elder one and a half cycles from now. Sirobo is going to be a drummer at the Family Festival in a few weeks and Wufa Mi is also going to be giving her first fashion show there. I'll make sure to take lots of pictures. Also, Detia is studying to become a professional translator/interpreter. She and Marana become Elders this cycle.

I spoke to Tamla about the mining community. Her company is the one building the houses. She says they should be complete in a few more months. I can't wait to see you when you finally get to move here!
 

So, what's going on in your life? I'd really like to hear all about it. Write back soon, ok? Love you, my dark beauty.

Jo
 

Hi Jo,

How's it going? I'm doing pretty good here. My 19th birthday's coming up and I think I'll do what you did last cycle and travel. I plan on coming to visit you and to take a look at the mining community. Also, Koyah is going to be at the Anti-Gravity room. Remember Koyah? That's the group that was performing at the Altus View Hotel lounge when you came to visit.

As for Uncle Rahj's opinion of you...he thinks you're a complete jerk, but I know better than that. He was really upset with you that day we broke up. I really didn't expect him to call you and give you a piece of his mind though. Sorry about that. He thinks I shouldn't have even gotten back with you, but I can see you've grown up a lot and you're really serious about this relationship. I mean we live thousands of miles apart and we're still going strong. That says something to me. How about you? I'll be seeing you in a few weeks, love.

Truly yours,

Trizana
 

Hi, Triz,

I'm glad to hear you'll be coming to visit for your birthday! Of course, I have something special waiting here for you. Can't wait to rock your world again, baby! Yes! By the way, why does you uncle think so poorly of me? I mean, I know there is no excuse for what I did with Meera, but that didn't happen til later. He didn't seem to like me from the beginning. Oh, well. No matter. As long as you love me.

I have happy news. My brother, Mikel, is supposed to be returning to become an Elder with us next cycle! Hopefully you'll be able to make it to our ceremony. His return and your return would make next cycle the most perfect birthday.

Trizana, this isn't a proposal, but I was wondering how you feel about marriage. I mean, do you see yourself settling down? I've been thinking about it a lot lately and I think I might be ready to leave the single life. And how about kids? Did you ever want to have any? I think two or three would be nice. Write back soon, my dearest. See you in a few weeks!

Love,

Jodan
 

Dear Jodan,

I think marriage is a great idea, but only if both parties are ready for it. As for you and me, I think we should take our time. We just got back together and it's like we're starting anew. When the time is right for marriage, I think we'll both know...hopefully. As for children, however many come I'll be content. I just don't want to have quadruplets.

As for Uncle Rahj's opinion of you, I think that comes from your reputation at school and those Hasau girls. They used to come by our house to harass me about you and Uncle Rahj got pretty pissed off by that. He also thought you were full of yourself when you first came over to see me for our first date. Maybe you were. I'm not sure because I was just glad to be with you. Anyway, I know you're not like that now. Like I said, you've matured and you don't seem that wild anymore (except in bed...hee hee). Hopefully, he'll come around to liking you, or at least tolerating you. Either way, I'm still going to love you no matter what.

Truly yours,

Trizana
 

Hey Dark Beauty,

It was great to see you again, but I wish you could have stayed here. Hopefully you'll be moving back here next cycle or sooner. Tam says the mining community should be done soon. How's your family doing? Everyone's doing ok here. Wufa Mi and Col got engaged. Mahda is thinking about retiring from traditional dance. She wants to start writing novels, or maybe even an autobiography. That would be cool. She used to be part of a gang called the Silver Shanks. You ever heard of them? As far as I know they're still active in Todine City, just with younger members. The original members either left, got locked up, or disappeared.

As you know, my birthday is coming up soon. I'm not sure what I would like, but I know you'll think of something nice. By the way, I've been hired to do a photo shoot for a music magazine. "Sound Bytes" magazine is doing a feature on Koyah. Write back soon, cheri beri. I miss you.

Love,

Jo
 

Dear Jodan,

My family is doing fine. I'm told that people are starting to move into the mining community, but our particular cabin is not complete yet. As for my schooling, so far I have completed all of my geology studies and surveyor's classes. Hopefully we will get notice that our cabin is complete. Then we will be able to see each other more often. I really do hope I get to move there before you turn 20 so I can attend your Eldership ceremony. I also hope we get there before mine, which is a couple months before yours. Sulhi had here not long after you came here for your 18th birthday. It was very nice.

I have a job right now mining the crystals used to make promise stones. I wish they came in pink. I like the light blue ones. They remind me of you. Congratulations on your shoot with Koyah. I just got their new CD and there's not one song I don't like on there. They even did a remix of "Gotta Make Sure." That's the song we danced to on your 18th birthday. I always thought it was ironic that they sang a song about a couple getting back together that same night. Go figure. Anyway, I love you dearly. I have a feeling we'll be seeing each other soon, my handsome lover.

Love,

Trizana
 

Hello my love,

I had a wonderful birthday today! My dear brother, Mikel, came back to celebrate with us. Our Eldership ceremony will be at the end of this week. I wish you could have come to our birthday party. I'm also sorry I missed your Eldership ceremony. By the time you get this letter you'll probably be moved here. Hopefully. When you get here, just give me a call. If I'm not there, leave a message. I get a feeling 'm going to be seeing you very soon, love.

Faithfully yours,

Jodan
 

Hi Jo,

There was a delay in our move but we should be there by the end of this week. I'll call you when we get settled in. I will be seeing you soon, my love!

Triz

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