From: PrtyLdy21
To: Mak5
Subject: I want to talk

Hello, Makel. It's been a while since we've spoken. I had wanted to call, but you made it clear that you didn't want to talk. You might not believe it, but I do think of you every day. I have missed you. I know I don't deserve you after what I've done, but that doesn't change the way I feel about you. What I did was selfish and maybe unforgivable. Today would have been our 40th anniversary. I never expected for us to be separated, especially on a day such as this. I wish you would speak to me. I don't care if it's words of affection or anger. Please say something.
 

From: Mak5
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: (no subject)

Ok, Lsa, you want me to say something, I will. I just want to know why. I gave you my everything. My heart, my time, my energy. Everything I've done since we've been together has been for you and our family. I did my best to take care of you. Not once have I ever thought of being unfaithful to you. I have never abused or neglected you, and yet you went betrayed my trust. On top of that, you straight out lied to me. That makes me wonder what else have you been untruthful about. That's the main reason I haven't wanted to speak to you because I don't know if I can believe anything you say! If you're ready to be completely honest with me for a change, I'm ready to listen. Otherwise, leave me the hell alone!
 

From: PrtyLdy21
To: Mak5
Subject: Re: (no subject)

Mak, I'm so very sorry I lied to you. I don't know what I was thinking. I swear to you I've never done anything like that before in my life. You might not believe it right now, but I do love you. Please forgive me for what I've done. I want to come home where I belong. I want to be with you and no one else.

Lsa
 

From: Mak5
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: (no subject)

Lsa, you say you're sorry for what you did, but I think you’re just sorry you got caught! If I hadn't found you in Azon's bed that day you probably would have continued to see him behind my back. I think your full of it.

You say you love me and everything, but if you did don't you think you would have thought how fucking my former best friend would affect me? Wouldn't that have been enough to stop it from even happening? Did I even cross your mind once. Maybe you couldn't think straight while he has fucking you senseless, but that is no excuse!
 

From: PrtyLdy21
To: Mak5
Subject: Re: (no subject)

Mak, truthfully part of me is sorry we got caught, but not for the reasons you think. That day you came over Azon and I had decided to break off the affair. I can honestly say that would have been the last time he and I would be together. I know you probably think because I'm still living here that we're still intimate, but that's not the case. I sleep in the bed and he sleeps on the couch...when he's here. Azon is off traveling most of the time. I spend most of the day watching Jodi. Once Triz comes to pick up Jodi, I'm here alone. Spending time with our grandson is fun, but I do miss you so. Don't you miss me at all?
 

From: Mak5
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: Answer to your question

Do I miss you? Yes and no. I miss the Lsa who was faithful to me and was the best mate a man could ever have. I don't miss the Lsa who cheated on me one bit. Any other questions?

And another thing. Am I supposed to feel sorry that you've been feeling lonely? Well, what a damn shame! So do I! I also feel hurt and betrayed. You want to know what I did after I found you with Azon? I went straight home and cried like a damn child! I didn't eat for two days. I put on a happy face for my customers but once I got back home I was miserable. Your affair has brought me nothing but pain and confusion. On one hand I do want you back, on the other hand I can't even stand the sight of you. For now, I'm leaning towards the latter. Maybe that will change. I honestly can't tell you one way or another.
 

From: PrtyLdy21
To: Mak5
Subject: Re: Answer to your question

I cried that day, too Mak. I knew I had hurt you deeply and I've regretted it ever since. I also regret making up that story about going shopping in Merchant Village. What I did was shameful and stupid. I hope somehow I can make it all up to you.
 

From: Mak5
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: (no subject)

Lsa, right now all I want you to do is keep your distance. I think right now it's best for both of us to stay away from each other. And please don't call my parents asking about me. They're pretty pissed off at you too. And Dani's upset with both of you.
 

From: PrtyLdy21
To: Mak5
Subject: forgot some things

Mak, I left some things in my office. I need to come and get them. Is it ok if I come by tomorrow evening?
 

From: Mak5
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: Re: forgot some things

I'll be here in the evening around 6 so you can stop by then. I'm curious as to why you keep that office door locked. What are you hiding in there?
 

From: PrtyLdy21
To: Mak5
Subject: Re: forgot some things

I left some paperwork I have to send to a publishing company. I'm in the process of writing a book. I didn't want to say anything until I found a publisher.
 

From: Mak5
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: Re: forgot some things

A book? What's it about? Could I read what you have?
 

From: PrtyLdy21
To: Mak5
Subject: My book

Well, it's basically an autobiography, but I change the names (mostly for legal reasons). I've only let one person look at it. I'm not sure I'm ready to let you read it because I know how upset you get when I talk about my childhood and my life on the streets. It's been a struggle for me getting it down on paper! Maybe I'll let you see it when it's complete.
 

From: Mak5
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: (no subject)

There's something that I can't seem to get off my mind. I've wanted to ask you since this mess all started. Was I the reason for your affair? I mean, did I not satisfy you? Was Azon better at certain things than me? Honestly, I thought I was a pretty damned good lover. I'm thinking I must not have been that great for you to look somewhere else.
 

From: PrtyLdy21
To: Mak5
Subject: Re: (no subject)

Mak, you were always a wonderful lover! Our sex life had nothing to do with me having an affair. What happened was when Zon showed up again all those old feelings for him resurfaced. You know before he was shot we were very close. I can even say that I was in love with him. In spite of all of that I had no excuse for acting on those feelings the way I did. I wanted to tell you what I was feeling but I was afraid of how you would react. From now on, I'm keeping no more secrets from you. There's something I want to tell you but I don't think now is the right time. I do promise to tell you eventually.

There is something I want to ask you though. What's this I hear about you and Kuli? I hear she's been coming around your shop a lot lately to talk to you. Are you guys seeing each other? I mean there's not much I can say if you are. If you want to see other women who am I to say something against it. If that's what you want to do, may luck shine upon you.
 

From: Mak5
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: Re: (no subject)

You were afraid of how I would react. It would have been a heck of a lot better that what happened! A part of me wants to believe that you won't keep secrets anymore. You broke my trust how can I completely trust you again? As for Kuli, yes, she, and all most every woman in Fountain Hill, comes to the shop and flirts with me. Kuli just flirts the most and the hardest. No I'm not seeing her or any of the others.
 

From: PrtyLdy21
To: Mak5
Subject: Kinda jealous

Kuli tells me you two used to be a couple. Is that true? You sure didn't tell me when she moved here from Todine city with her daughters and niece. Looks like I'm not the only one keeping secrets! At first I thought she was lying, but then she told me she knows about that little things you like to do in bed then gave me details! I almost got in a fight with her when she started talking smack. Said that I might as well draw up divorce papers because she's gonna make you hers again. Now I know where the Hasau girls learned how to be sluts! Mak, I gotta know...do you ever get tempted at all? I've got to admit I do, I just haven't been acting on it. I'm so very jealous of those women getting to talk to you while I want to see you face to face! This separation has been torture!
 

From: Mak5
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: Re: Kinda jealous

Yes, Lsa. Kuli and I used to date, but that was a looooong time ago! We were just starting secondary school and we only dated for one semester. So, you're feeling a bit jealous. Now you know how I feel about you living with Azon right now. I know you say you two don't have sex anymore, but I find that hard to believe. I know you, Lsa. You like sex and you like it often. Of course, I like it too, but I have self control...unlike some people.
 

From: ShadowBlade
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: I've landed

Hi, Pretty Niku. Just letting you know I got to Hnn country safely. How's everything? I know you get lonely while I'm gone, but you know how my job is. I never know if I'm coming or going.

How's Jodi? Still being a good boy? Jodan's not still mad at me, is he? I know last time he came to pick up Jodi he refused to come to the door and asked you to bring him out to him. I thought that was kind of rude, but I won't hold it against him.

Has Makel called you yet? I know he hasn't since...well you know what happened. I saw him not too long ago at his shop. I was driving home and he was outside talking to some woman. I think it was Lady Hasau. I couldn't really tell because she had her back to me and she was all up in his face. Maybe they were kissing. I don't know. All I know was they were pretty close to each other. Anyway, I'll let you know when I'm heading back.

Love you,

Azon
 

From: PrtyLdy21
To: Mak5
Subject: Re: Re: kinda jealous

Mak, the only reason I moved in with Azon is that you told me to leave. It wasn't really what I wanted to do, but I had little options. I've never hidden the fact that I like sex, a lot. That does not mean I have no self control, you know that. I guess you're still too angry. I'm alone right now anyway, Azon is gone.

Lsa
 

From: Mak5
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: give me a break!

Lsa, you are so full of it! What do you mean you didn't have a choice but to move in with Azon? There's plenty of people you could have asked. What about Tamla? I'm sure she would have let you come stay with her. Bani and Gafad would have helped you out. Dani might have even taken you in, even though she's upset with you. She lives right there in Merchant Village. You could have even stayed in a hotel. But you had to return to the scene of the crime, huh? That hurt me just as much as finding you in his bed.
 

To: Mak5
From: PrtyLdy21
Subject: re: give me a break!

Yes, you're right, I could have. But all of those people were your friends and family also. I knew I did not have the right to ask you to stay away from their homes for my sake, and, quite bluntly, I feared your anger. I still do.
 

From: Shadowblade
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: heading for home

Pretty Niku, I'm heading back home tomorrow. Do you want me to bring anything back for you? I picked you up a gift. I think you'll like it. Did everything go ok while I was gone? I missed you. I'll be glad to see you again.

Love,
Zon
 

From: PrtyLdy21
To: Shadowblade
Subject: re: heading for home

Got your message. Everything is going ok, I guess. I'm sure I'll like whatever you got me. Have a safe trip back.

Lsa
 

From: PrtyLdy21
To: Mak5
Subject: Just stopping by

I want to know if it's all right to bring Jodi by the shop to visit. He keeps asking for sweet cakes and you make the best ones around. Is it ok if I swing by sometime soon?

Lsa
 

From: Mak5
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: Re: Just stopping by

Sure. You can bring Jodi by anytime. I'll make some extra sweet cakes for him.
 

From: PrtyLdy21
To: Mak5
Subject: Just thinking...

I've been thinking about your call last evening. I was very surprised that you even wanted to talk to me because of the way you were acting at the shop. I'm curious as to what changed your mind. By the way, I'm looking forward to having dinner with you for the first time after three cycles.

Lsa
 

From: Mak5
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: Re: Just thinking...

What changed my mind was the pain I saw in your eyes. I realized you were hurting just as much as I was at the time, if not more. I think it's about time we sat down and really talked anyway. I'm looking forward to dinner with you too.

Mak
 

From: PrtyLdy21
To: Mak5
Subject: Feedback

Dinner was really nice last night. I had almost forgotten what an excellent cook you are! I also enjoyed the time we spent together. It was good to be able to sit down and really talk to each other instead of at each other. I'm so happy to know that you still love me. I always knew you did, but it was good to hear you say it. You said you needed just a little more time to be ready for me to come home. I'm willing to give you that time because it will be worth the wait. I love you so very much, Makel. And I always will.

Love,

Lsa
 

From: Mak5
To: PrtyLdy21
Subject: Re: Feedback

I'm glad to hear you enjoyed my cooking as much as ever. When I saw you again, I knew that I never stopped loving you. Thank you for understanding my need for more time. It will be worth it, I promise you, Lsa love. Our love will be all the stronger from the mending as we piece our lives back together.

Soon we will be able to resume our lives together, as it is meant to be. I do love you, pretty lady.

Love,

Makel

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